First 'Official' Date Results

We had a great date. It was simple, adorable, understated and delicious.

I took her to this Italian restaurant called Caffe Milano, which has always been one of my favorites considering the food is delicious and they have this exquisite chocolate delight, that is truly just to die for. I picked her up, a bit worried that her hair was wet and the night was very chilly. She called me a worry wart and we were on our way.

Truth be told, I was utterly nervous during the entire ordeal. She was stunning, with that sweet, sassy smile of hers, a dress that fit her curves and an utter disposition to enjoy herself. I did my best to mimic her, be calm and collected but my mind was racing with all these ridiculous possibilities. Would she enjoy the food? Did she like the ambiance? Is she comfortable? Is it too modern? Does it look like I'm going out of my way to please her?.

Mind you, I'm never this way during a date. I'm normally very calm, very together and quite frankly very out of it. Maybe the restaurants I choose are always a bit stuffy or the dates aren't that entertaining. I've had fun dates before but this was one was sweet. With it's ups and downs.

We talked about many things, but mostly she kept focusing on my cheeks! It's true, I was most embarrassed during the entire thing, which worries me a bit. I particularly enjoyed how the candlelight danced inside her eyes.

After that, we went by this gourmet supermarket I had been talking about during the date. It's called E.A.T. and it has a series of fruits and vegetables and drinks that aren't normally available. She completely flipped, which was quite a surprise to me. She started taking all these products, half of which I can't even remember.

When I dropped her at her house, we shared a kiss and she said she had a great time which did WONDERS for my nervous stomach. It was so sweet, so fun. I can't wait until I see her again.

First Date

Today is our first date with pouring rain as the backdrop. A weather which I love (and find extremely romantic) considering I grew up with it and it gives life to my plants. Yes. Our first "official date" as she calls it. And I suppose I haven't wanted to recognize it as such considering it raises my nerves by ten. It's not as if I haven't gone on first dates. I have, plenty of times. But this is a... first date for us, and I am dating a younger lady, things are a bit different. Mind you, I'm not going out of my way as to research how it is that young lads now go on dates, knowing pretty well I will be both highly disappointed and throughly disgusted. Nonetheless, it wouldn't kill to know.

Oh GOD, would you listen to the nonsensical things I am saying? Please.

She's pretty excited about it and I'm glad that she is. I sent her flowers just a few minutes ago. Tulips, her favorite. Along with a very kindred, albeit flirty note that I can hardly wait for tonight. Which is very true, considering I'm revising the menu of the place in advance. There ARE certain date type rules or so I have been told. First, and this is all Marie's doing, you can't order anything that spatters and stains your clothes. I believe I have checked it over a thousand times, I'm pretty sure of what I'm ordering yet I'm considerably anxious over it being the right choice.

Goodness, these nerves. I have to stop talking to Marie. She is making me neurotic because now food can harbor a hidden meaning of your real personality depending on what you order or how you eat it. She needs to stop reading so much Cosmopolitan.

I have a meeting around 16hrs. I still need to get gas for the car and get my shirt ironed. I'm good. I'm calming down. I'm listening to soothing music. I'm not thinking of the repercussions of this not working out. We have amazing sexual chemistry, it is unlikely that we won't share it on the table. Good. Positive thoughts.

I'm not an easily rattled person but having Marie talking on the phone constantly, does things to a man. Either way, I'm starved but I can't eat anything. Oh bloody first dates, I just remembered how much I hate them! ... now now, no need to rush. I'm calming down. I'm tranquil. I am going to nap.

...I really despise my perfectionist attitude at these moments. I should just stop writing and do other things. And that is exactly what I will do.

Decisions

Caterina Maria and I are making arrangements to live together soon. Yes, it seems fast but to me, it seems reasonable. Having a long distance relationship is horrible. It makes you ache all the time and quite frankly, I don't think my pocket can take more private jets flying to Vienna on a day-to-day basis. Going on dates, spending the night in each other's arms, eating out, eating in, watching a movie... these are all things that I can't have if she lives far from me. So it's not completely unreasonable to want to be near her. She is my girlfriend.

It still feels rather funny to say that. I've never had such a fun, upbeat and completely unpredictable girlfriend. Though I'm a bit apprehensive. I don't want to be under the honeymoon effect for too long because it is unrealistic to find so many wonderful things in one person. But she is very giving, she knows how to cook, she smiles all the time, she has entertaining mood swings, she can dance, she makes me feel incredibly light when I'm with her... and makes me act incredibly unlike me. I am not the type of person who boasts and brags about their girlfriend though I can hardly contain myself. She makes me feel very light.

... :)

Tomorrow life begins to take over us. I go back to my work and the bemusing social functions that do not feel right if my Caterina isn't with me.

Perhaps I do need to calm a bit down as Henry says. Then again, Henry sleeps around like a dog and doesn't care about how feel, he just hates that I complain to him. Such good friends I have. I will now call Caterina.

Mesmerized by Planet Earth

Planet Earth is so bloody amazing it's not even funny. It's just an outstanding piece of cinematography. The colors, the richness, the vibrancy of these images. The effects that Mother Nature herself has displayed before us makes anything made by Hollywood fall flat on it's face. True, I admit I am biased considering I love nature but I think that anyone that perhaps thinks they won't like it, will end up loving it through these eyes. It's just... amazing. You get to understand both humans and animals so well. I would really love it if Caterina Maria were here to see this with me. I would love to share it, just so she can see what I see.

Sappy, I don't care. I'm dazzled. How is it that we live on a such a beautiful land and we destroy it so carelessly?

I'm grateful to Michelangelo, he gave it to me as a birthday present after buying himself a copy. He thought I might fancy it, and he thought correctly. Goodness gracious. I know I should be resting and getting ready for later but I can't... it's too bloody fantastic and I can't go to sleep. Imagine that... five entire CD's of sheer marvelous displays of nature. Pure, untouched nature.

I can swear on my life, I almost had an orgasm.